Just don’t know

I don’t know.  I just don’t know.  There is so much going on in the world right now and then the Minneapolis chaos hits.   

 It can be overwhelming.  I don’t think my heart even knows how to respond.  I just know there is a deep ache in my chest and as the drama continues to unfold there is a temptation to be drawn down.  Can we ever overcome it? 

 Can black men walk on streets without judgment? 

Can police officers be respected in spite of what others in uniform have done? 

Can shop owners pick up the pieces of broken glass and rebuild small businesses? 

Can we, as people, love one another? Really love? 

 What is happening?!? 

 But Isaiah 26:3-4 calls to my heart, “You will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast, because he trusts in you.  Trust in the Lord forever, for the Lord, the Lord is the Rock eternal.”   

 As trying and stressful days close in, as headlines shout ugliness of hearts and actions, we know that He will bring us peace.  It reminds me to take a deep breath.  A real one.  Another.  Breathe in the perfect peace as I trust in Him.  Forever.  Because He is the Rock eternal.  That means forever.  The chaos of this week is a blip on His screen, but it doesn’t mean that it pains his heart any less.  Can we have steadfast minds as we lift up all of the victims of this situation before Him? 

 Can we even know what to pray in this situation?  Sometimes our prayers lift merely as groans; we don’t have the words.  “In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness.  We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express.  And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God’s will.” – Romans 8:26-27 

 That’s what we need!  The Spirit to take our groans and translate them into God’s will.   

 Intercede for us, Holy Spirit!  This situation needs prayer and I don’t even know what to pray. 

 I just don’t know, 

 Heather Smith 



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